Love or Infatuation?

"Ewan ko nga kung love pero feelin ko infatuation lang eh..."

That was m line yestrday. I was cofused whether if i am in love or I am just infatuated. This is the story. I have this ultimate crush with a girl in our school. She is not my classmate and neither a very close friend but at least she is my friend. I have this very strange feeling since the day I met her. Know how Imet her? Owkei, let's make a flashback...

(Flashback)

'Twas the afternoon of that certain day (sorry, i forgot the date). I was about to go home so I went to the room of the section Marconi to ask ray Sagun (wow! special mention?) my ever trusted??? friend to go home together. As expected, he will go with me. before leaving, he remembered that "someone" had borrowed the photocopy of the book where we can get the answers for our assignment in health (the assignment is all abouttypes of toilets... hehehe...). He then called his classmate who is alone inside their room. She was cleaning that then. Ray shouted... "Hoy bleep bleep! Isauli mo na sa akin ung photocopy ko...". I watched her as she answered Ray, "Sige tatapusin ko lang maglinis... Saglit lang...". But since I was in a hurry, I told Ray, "Hoy Ray... Lam mo, ang sama mo. Tingnan mo siya, para siyang binagsakan ng buong mundo sa ginawa mo... Ang sama mo! bigay mo na lang sa kanya yun tapos ikaw na lang ang magpakahirap sa paggawa ng assignment bukas..." . Well, because of my irresistable charms, he agrred. I looked again to bleep bleep. She was smiling but at that time, I was in a very hurry mode so I felt nothing.

Those days continued. I often met her at the corridor and every time we met, she is smiling at me. Time passed by, very strange feeling developed every time we meet. I felt nervous when she's there. I became so concious with the way I look and the way I walk. Ifelt like being in heaven every time I see her. I can't understand this kind of feeling that had struck me.

But I thought things will workout right. I tired to befriend her but there are so many epal people, like my teacher, who built a very thick wall between us. Because of those things, I failed with my objective...

Owkei, that's enough. Past is past, anyways we are already friends. We became friends since the semestral break. Owkei, let's go bak to the future...

(Present)

Because my problem is that I amconfuse whether it's love or infatuation, I texted Carlos Miguel (HAY NAKU! Anyways, as of now, he is my closest friend because he had been a big help with regards of my problem and he is older than I so I frequently ask some advise from him... hehehe... si kuya...) about this thingmajigger. I told him that every time I had a thought of bleep bleep, I become happy. But even though we, I and bleep bleep, have communication, I feel like giving up. I tried to ask her if she can be courted but she, at first, answered NO because of her several reasons. Then, nagpaparamdam ako na I want to court her but she remains quiet, she is speechless. She is very unpredictable... I am very ewan... We are both magulo... (ang gulo ng isip namin!!!)...

I really don't know if I am infatuated or already in love... anyways... I don'tlike to be othered by htis thing... for now, I will just dowhat I would like todo and the things that make me happy.

But i am calling for those people who can helpme... try toput your little advice in the comment thing effect...or if it is just short, pwede na siguro sa tag board...

Nyweiz, this is really a very happy day... =)